Everything seems to be so blunt.The food is so awful,the weather is so damn hot,so boring at home.Wondering what is she doing now.Tears roll down whenever i think of her.It seems so different."Raya" won't be great this year seriously i don't even think of celebrating it cause i can't be enjoying while she suffers.The eager of preparing for "raya" is no longer there.We have tried ways of asking people to help us but in the end they let us down.You see how bad is human?Whenever they need help we will help them but whenever we need it they will give us excuses instead.It always seems to be that way.Oh god never this things strikes us before.Maybe this is a challenge for us.Maybe there is a consequences to all this.Maybe.