Vesak day.

finally a public holiday yeah!time for a rest at home.well i cancel my meet wif my bf cause i'm too tired cum lazy to go out i rather stay at home to rest but i do miss him though.i'm soo sori dear if you are reading this will meet u up this saturday aite and thanks for being understanding love u dear.

well the whole day i've been watching tv cause there's alot of great show today which i can't miss.especially shallow hal and 50 first date i just love that two movie.i can actually watch it repeatedly cause its soo romantic other then that i've been washing clothes as well as cleaning up the house.today weather was great cause it was raining in the afternoon if not i bet it will be damn hot.was thinking to go for a jog but was too lazy though maybe next time i guess.

tomorrow will be another day at work.i do have lots of stuff to follow up tomorrow.patient results,scans and alot more.i will need to finish up everything by tomorrow.guess i will have to come early to work and not to forget after work i will be having my class.gosh i guess i will be soo shagged.i will have to sleep early today in order to be more active tomorrow hah.nite everyone =)

After soo long.

Thanks to you i'm goin real crazy right now!
Questions stuck in my head.
Every questions was left unanswered.
Thanks for reappearing!
Thanks for making it miserable again.
You might think its funny or weird,well its definately not.
7 months you think its a joke?
I find it very unreasonable really unreasonable.

26 May 2007.

i'm really am not good in making decision.i will decide for once and then regret it.haiz..sometimes i wonder have i really made a right decision?

well i had a great time today doing household shopping with my parents.went to sheng shiong at ten mile junction.as usual it will always be crowded well who doesn't know sheng shiong rite it claims to be selling cheap items but when i realise it,the price actual are all the same as e other supermarket.i actually took alot of things from toiletries to food.in total it cost $122.20 but its worth it actually cause we bought alot of things.

::my new hairdo::

finally a new hairstyle wee!after the straight thing i decided to perm my hair.well i like it very much a new me i could sae.it cost $80 for the perm quite cheap right and $28 for the cream and in total it cost me $108.just for my hair i spent $100 over dollars.luckily its worth it if not i will regret for sure.

22/5/07

work was real light yesterday in the morning i was at sports clinic i really miss those days while i was at there.as usual i will be assisting jimmy there.although he has quite a number of patients but only a few turn up.managed to finish in time though.afternoon was even better no clinic at all.went to get some consent forms to print out all those colonoscopy and ogd thing untill my hand was cut by the paper real deeply.ouch! was very painful wrap it up with tegaderm and at least the pain reduces.

after work i went straight to NUH to meet a friend of mine who was admitted.asked my best friend to come along but she can't make it so i went there by myself.luckily i managed to find his ward 66 bed 1 rm 1 went inside and i saw him reading newspapers all by himself.i bought him some food to eat my favourite mr bean pancake hope he eats it la hehe.had a long chat with him accompanying him there, his family members finally arrived to visit him at about 8 plus.chat with his sister in law and stuff i left the hospital at about 9 plus right after anugerah.well hopefully his eyes will be fine la can see that he's really worried about it although he didn't tell but it does show from his face well take care tarmizi.

life.

just please let me smile for once.why came back and haunt me again?maybe my life is faithed this way i won't blame god for that maybe its something i must go thru.being very patience is what i've been doing all these while.

thanks guys for all that advised i really need a listening ears atleast for now.thank you soo much kak lynn for letting me express my feelings your the only one who knows what i've been thru all this while.thx buden although we are not tt close but all the advised u gave me i will bear tt in mind i really appreciate it soo much it does make me shed in tears.

life is really full of complication i dunnoe for people out there but it does for me.living the truth in our heart without compromise brings kindness into the world. attempts at kindness that compromise our heart cause only sadness.

well i guess its only up to me.

why suddenly?

oh god y he came out of a sudden?after all those hurt tears i've gone thru and now he came bck talking to me.the reason that i've been waiting all this while is still not answered all he could sae was its difficult to say out here as he's having some problem n he will tell me when he meets me one day.gosh you should have just not bother me all the long like u did dissapearing just like that.now that i'm happy with someone else suddenly u appear.oh god please give me the strength.what does this all means?

boring sunday.

its sunday the day for me to rest,cleaning up and washing my stuff.woke up late today at about 12 plus i guess as per normal switch on my com to check my mail.well i still can't forget the incident yesterday but its ok i will just keep it quietly to myself just lets see what happen only god knows.i had chicken rice for breakfast thanks to dad.mum didn't come back today so it was a bit quiet at home.plan today was cancel cause he was busy with his work stuff but its ok i understand.time pass by so fast all i did today was surfing the net.tomorrow is another day for me another busy day.i just hope everything will be fine tomorrow.oh ya not to forget i'm having a mock test tomorrow better start learning.

what a day.

its saturday but i need to work gosh i feel soo shagged.met d in the morning went work together took a bus there well i was very early actually hah and people was like asking why was i very early today haha.had breakfast in the pantry chat wif my friends then get ready to start clinic.doing workman com is ok but running two rooms at a time will make me like a crazy woman especially when patients keep coming non stop.well its has been a long time since i work on saturday trying to recall the workman com thing i just realise that they have started to use a new form and its much easier cause there is no MC column.finish clinic abit late actually but its ok cause rajesh owns me a lunch hehe.

after work i went straight to meet d at raffles place mrt thought of meeting syikin to get my belt back but its okla i guess the next time round maybe.went to get lunch at subway.didn't managed to finish the food cause i was not that hungry actually.receive a msg from rashid saying that i was with my new bf,i was abit shock actually wonder how he knows that trying to look around the place who knows he's somewhere there but no where in sight.so i give him a call instead.he said he saw me at the bus stop while i was with my bf.hah well it has been a long time since he left AH.

went to suntec city to watch a movie after our meal.movie we watch was blades of glory haha very funny show indeed.i recommend you all to watch it cause i bet u will laugh like hell just like i did hehe.but the movie seats was very lousy and it cause my neck to hurt.movie ended at about 6 plus i guess told d that i wanna go home straight i was very tired actually thought of going home to rest.

well its exactly one week now we have been together everything was alright soo far.but sometimes i do have this kind of weird feeling i dunnoe why.i guess the past makes me the way i am now.being very suspicious,curious,careful and misunderstanding is what i am now.i just don't want to be hurt again enough of everything.sometimes i wonder being single or attached is both difficult or i rather not to be in this world anymore. i just pray for everything to be alright.insya'allah.

its damn funny.

check this out guys i bet u will laugh like hell just like i do!

mummy's day.

gosh i'm still cracking my head thinking of what should i get or do during mother's day.ask my sister to help but useless,she has totally no idea.well i thought of baking her a cake instead rather then buying it from outside.atleast it shows how much i love her by making her that cake with my own hand and with love from the bottom of my heart.how sweet isn't it?hah.but there's still another problem,i don't know what cake to make.hmm..browse some of the cake books that i have.my eyes was caught by this chocolate cake.maybe i should make that.ya chocolate cake.yummy!hehe. definately i will ask my sister and my dad to help me with this or atleast accompany me while i was making that cake.hope that everything will turn out as plan.

work today was alright, although the workload was not that bad but i still feel very tired.i guess i've not been having enough rest.mayb i slept late the pass few days.

i think i'm getting chubbier hah.i have been eating and eating.gosh craving for food and stuff just like a pregnant lady.haha.i guess its because of my aunt dot thing.its actually normal for me to crave for food especially when i'm about to have my aunt dot.but i hate it cause it will make me gain that kg.i guess i must work something out,have not been doing running lately cause i was soo busy with work and studies.the only day i will be free is on tuesday and thursday but it all depends cause sometimes i feel soo tired.well if there's a will there's a way.i definately must put on my running shoes back!

haiz.

i'm feeling UPSET really UPSET.
very MOODY.really MOODY.
why must it turn out to be this way after all my effort.
haiz :(

i like this one.

There are moments in life when we miss someone so much that we just want to pick them from our dream and hug them for real! When the door of happiness closes, another opens but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.Don't go for looks they can deceive. Don't go for wealth even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile,because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.Dream what you want to dream go where you want to go be what you want to be,because we have only one life and one chance to do all the things we want to do. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.Don't count the years count the memories.

i don't know for you but i feel great after reading this.i guess whatever written is true.well;

Cartoon me.

Thanks el for the cartoon version of me.hehe.
so sweet of you.
i really like it.
=))