i still do think of you.i still do care.well its true people say u tend to love the person that left.i know its a decision i made.partly the reason is i rather be a loner.cause i'm use to it.i'm not those type that always hang around.i do if i feel like it.whenever u r in a relationship spending time together is a must if u don't the other party will think that you are not interested.maybe i'm just not ready for that and the word is commitment.well if we are meant to be,we will be together again one day.i leave it to god to show me the way.

as usual sunday is the day to rest at home.woke up at around 10am thx to a friend of mine who woke me up wif a sms saying that he lost all his contacts in msn poor thing.had mcdonalds with my sis and dad for breakfast my mum didn't came home this week maybe next week i guess.well wrote down in a piece of paper plan for today.cleaning up the house as well as my room,wash clothes,sweep the floor and clean up my cupboard.everything is done by 5.30pm.

ok i've become chubbier really.i need to lose some KG for sure!i need to stop eating all those chocolates but i can't i'm always craving for it hah.whenever i ask my friends how do i lose weight i always get the same old answer that i'm fine and i'm not fat.stop it ok i know myself well i think i have to do something about it really gosh i dunwan to gain weight again :(

i'm having my break right now feeling tired actually.clinic was ok in the morning everything was smooth.well hoping tt it will be the same in e afternoon.going to town with jinah later after work so i will be sending back casenotes to AH instead of gaya.finding a birthday present for a friend of mine so thought of browsing around town area since its singapore sales.

i'm stuck with my own feeling as well as decision i'm reallly confused.i've been thinking real hard this pass few days well i just hope to make the right one.well maybe i just need time but if i were to delay it i'm afraid that the impact will be much more.

ok i can't wait for this saturday!i really can't wait jinah!! haha although its jinah birthday and will be celebrating her birthday at st james but its as though was my birthday cause i'm really excited.haha.can't wait to meet up all my friends which i've not meet them for quite sometimes.i'm sure we will have a great time this saturday.

Life.

Life is too short
grudges are a waste of perfect happiness
laugh when we can
apologise when we should
and let go of what we can't change.
Love deeply and forgive quickly
take chances,give everything
and have no regrets.
Life is too short to be unhappy
we have to take the good with the bad.
Smile when we are sad
love what we got and always remember
what we had.
Always forgive but never forget
learn from mistake but never regret.
People change and things go wrong
but after all life stills goes on..

Vesak day.

finally a public holiday yeah!time for a rest at home.well i cancel my meet wif my bf cause i'm too tired cum lazy to go out i rather stay at home to rest but i do miss him though.i'm soo sori dear if you are reading this will meet u up this saturday aite and thanks for being understanding love u dear.

well the whole day i've been watching tv cause there's alot of great show today which i can't miss.especially shallow hal and 50 first date i just love that two movie.i can actually watch it repeatedly cause its soo romantic other then that i've been washing clothes as well as cleaning up the house.today weather was great cause it was raining in the afternoon if not i bet it will be damn hot.was thinking to go for a jog but was too lazy though maybe next time i guess.

tomorrow will be another day at work.i do have lots of stuff to follow up tomorrow.patient results,scans and alot more.i will need to finish up everything by tomorrow.guess i will have to come early to work and not to forget after work i will be having my class.gosh i guess i will be soo shagged.i will have to sleep early today in order to be more active tomorrow hah.nite everyone =)

After soo long.

Thanks to you i'm goin real crazy right now!
Questions stuck in my head.
Every questions was left unanswered.
Thanks for reappearing!
Thanks for making it miserable again.
You might think its funny or weird,well its definately not.
7 months you think its a joke?
I find it very unreasonable really unreasonable.

26 May 2007.

i'm really am not good in making decision.i will decide for once and then regret it.haiz..sometimes i wonder have i really made a right decision?

well i had a great time today doing household shopping with my parents.went to sheng shiong at ten mile junction.as usual it will always be crowded well who doesn't know sheng shiong rite it claims to be selling cheap items but when i realise it,the price actual are all the same as e other supermarket.i actually took alot of things from toiletries to food.in total it cost $122.20 but its worth it actually cause we bought alot of things.

::my new hairdo::

finally a new hairstyle wee!after the straight thing i decided to perm my hair.well i like it very much a new me i could sae.it cost $80 for the perm quite cheap right and $28 for the cream and in total it cost me $108.just for my hair i spent $100 over dollars.luckily its worth it if not i will regret for sure.

22/5/07

work was real light yesterday in the morning i was at sports clinic i really miss those days while i was at there.as usual i will be assisting jimmy there.although he has quite a number of patients but only a few turn up.managed to finish in time though.afternoon was even better no clinic at all.went to get some consent forms to print out all those colonoscopy and ogd thing untill my hand was cut by the paper real deeply.ouch! was very painful wrap it up with tegaderm and at least the pain reduces.

after work i went straight to NUH to meet a friend of mine who was admitted.asked my best friend to come along but she can't make it so i went there by myself.luckily i managed to find his ward 66 bed 1 rm 1 went inside and i saw him reading newspapers all by himself.i bought him some food to eat my favourite mr bean pancake hope he eats it la hehe.had a long chat with him accompanying him there, his family members finally arrived to visit him at about 8 plus.chat with his sister in law and stuff i left the hospital at about 9 plus right after anugerah.well hopefully his eyes will be fine la can see that he's really worried about it although he didn't tell but it does show from his face well take care tarmizi.

life.

just please let me smile for once.why came back and haunt me again?maybe my life is faithed this way i won't blame god for that maybe its something i must go thru.being very patience is what i've been doing all these while.

thanks guys for all that advised i really need a listening ears atleast for now.thank you soo much kak lynn for letting me express my feelings your the only one who knows what i've been thru all this while.thx buden although we are not tt close but all the advised u gave me i will bear tt in mind i really appreciate it soo much it does make me shed in tears.

life is really full of complication i dunnoe for people out there but it does for me.living the truth in our heart without compromise brings kindness into the world. attempts at kindness that compromise our heart cause only sadness.

well i guess its only up to me.

why suddenly?

oh god y he came out of a sudden?after all those hurt tears i've gone thru and now he came bck talking to me.the reason that i've been waiting all this while is still not answered all he could sae was its difficult to say out here as he's having some problem n he will tell me when he meets me one day.gosh you should have just not bother me all the long like u did dissapearing just like that.now that i'm happy with someone else suddenly u appear.oh god please give me the strength.what does this all means?

boring sunday.

its sunday the day for me to rest,cleaning up and washing my stuff.woke up late today at about 12 plus i guess as per normal switch on my com to check my mail.well i still can't forget the incident yesterday but its ok i will just keep it quietly to myself just lets see what happen only god knows.i had chicken rice for breakfast thanks to dad.mum didn't come back today so it was a bit quiet at home.plan today was cancel cause he was busy with his work stuff but its ok i understand.time pass by so fast all i did today was surfing the net.tomorrow is another day for me another busy day.i just hope everything will be fine tomorrow.oh ya not to forget i'm having a mock test tomorrow better start learning.